July 14, 2017!
A date I will never forget ! What a wild ride this has been. If you told me 3 years ago, that I would have Mary back and also a son, and 3 years clean, sober and healthy, I would not have believed you.

The day before I went to rehab I was passed out on my front steps with a police officer waking me up. It is just insane to think about what a nightmare my life was. It’s almost like it wasn’t even me. I knew I would get Mary home one day, but I thought it would take years. I never thought I would have another child, ever. I never thought I could care for 2 children because I could hardly care for one. Getting out of rehab I still had no confidence, no self esteem or self worth. What I did to Mary, losing her, crushed my soul, and I ended up dating a guy who reflected how I felt about myself at that time.

BUT CHECK THIS OUT...

It’s now 3 years later when I didn’t think I could stay clean 3 minutes. I’m raising a strong, exceptionally well behaved, beautiful little girl. I’m also raising a funny, curious, exceptionally well behaved handsome toddler boy.

I fell out of love with people who didn’t deserve me, and fell in love with myself for the first time ever. I am so enjoying raising these kids on my own, I’m having way too much fun to date, my job is way too important right now to do anything else.

And I get asked this a lot: No, I am not missing anything by not dating. I’m raising a little girl, no man is coming through these doors. I have missed so much in my life already, I’m finally living again, men can wait-everyone can wait for that matter. Life is too short, I do not have time.

There’s nothing special I’m doing to stay sober. No sponsor, AA or meds. All I have to do is remember what my life was like 3 years ago and that will keep me sober for a few lifetimes, that’s what a horrific disgusting nightmare it was. I wouldn't trade this life I have now for anything in the world. No one in their right mind would ever want to live that way. I’m in my right mind now.

We have come upon hard times, and I commend anyone who is trying to recover during this time or any time, it's just so worth it, and you are worth it ! ♥️ Thank you for reading , stay safe and healthy.